My life is out of focus.

My life is consumed and weighed down by many things. 

My heart and soul are heavy, broken and weary. 

You see I have been so consumed with the temporary that I have lost sight of and forgotten about the eternal. 

I have been – 

So consumed with what is and what I’ve lost to truly see and appreciate who and what I have.

So consumed with my failure to speak up, stand up and fight for what is true and right, that I miss other opportunities to do just that. 

So consumed with fear that I only open to the door to more and more failures. Thereby missing the opportunity to see and experience God’s faithfulness and provision.

So consumed with my disobedience to God’s call on my life, that I often can’t muster the humility to once again ask for His abundant forgiveness and grace.

So consumed with the bondage and slavery to the sin I am stuck in, to take the only necessary step towards the freedom that Jesus has already purchased for me.

So concerned with wondering what others will think that I allow procrastination and laziness to take over and keep me from moving and obeying. Forgetting that I have a mighty Savior who is waiting for me to reach out and take His already extended hand of leadership.

So consumed with greed, jealousy and selfishness that I am missing out on truly and honestly sharing my life with those around me.

So consumed with the temporary happiness of those in my circle that I avoid the important spiritual conversations and the eternal impact they may have.

So consumed with trying to fit in and be included that I have forgotten that is not who I am called to be. I am called to be set apart and be different, just like Jesus.

So focused on myself and what I want, that I have lost sight of what God wants for me. I have forgotten to put others first and love my neighbors as myself and the joy it brings them and me.

So focused on what I’ve lost, can’t do, and stupid rules that I don’t agree with that I forgotten what I can do, how I can love, as well as who and what I have gained.

So consumed with gaining the trust and respect of humans that I have forgotten that God is the One I’m supposed to be working for and trying to please.

So focused on the here and now, that I have forgotten to look towards God and eternity.  

I have been so afraid to rock the boat, worried about unintentionally offending others, dealing with possible hurt feelings and broken relationships, that I have forgotten to trust God and follow wherever He leads me.

I have been so afraid to really live the life God has called me to live, be the person God created me to be, that I’m missing out on the adventure of really living.

No more, not today. 

Today I’m choosing Jesus. 

Today I’m choosing real living for Jesus.

Today I’m choosing love.

Today I’m choosing grace.

Today I’m choosing my family and friends.

Today I’m choosing an eternal perspective and trusting God to fill in the gaps.

Matthew 11:28-30 “Come to me, all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take up my yoke and learn from me, because I am lowly and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

John 14:6 “Jesus told him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.”

Isaiah 40:28-31 “Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the whole earth. He never becomes faint or weary; there is no limit to his understanding. He gives strength to the faint and strengthens the powerless. Youths may become faint and weary, and young men stumble and fall, but those who trust in the Lord will renew their strength; they will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not become weary, they will walk and not faint.”