I am plagued with a question this morning. Is Jesus enough? The answer should be easy. We all know it should be yes. I’ve said the words countless times, even saying them to Him. But this morning as I sit here longing for what life was only a few weeks ago, I must ask myself do I really believe that Jesus is enough? Because if I’m being honest, I’m not acting or thinking like I truly believe these words.

I’ve been angry that I can’t go to church. Angry that I can’t go to work. Angry that I can’t go get coffee or lunch with friends, etc.. But at the same time, angry that I can’t be alone in my house for even a couple of hours. The truth is that Jesus is not in any of the places I desire to go, but He is right here with me wherever I am. I am never truly alone. So, why do I long for more? 

This morning during my quiet time I spilled an almost full cup of coffee all over myself. Yeah, I know you are thinking so what, but give me a second to explain. Getting a cup of coffee is part of my morning routine. I get up, make a cup of coffee and settle in for my time alone with God. Spilling the coffee, as silly as it seems, pointed me back to the question I had been pondering –is Jesus enough? There is nothing wrong with drinking coffee while you read your Bible and pray. But if it becomes something that I have to have in order to spend quality time with Jesus, isn’t that in some small way saying that, Jesus isn’t enough alone? Am I adding stipulations to the statement of enough, so that it’s really – Jesus is enough as long as I get to go to church outside my home each week. Or Jesus is enough as long as I get to see my friends and co-workers each week. Do you see what I mean? 

It’s been almost two full weeks of being at home, even though our stay at home order didn’t officially go into effect until a couple of days ago. I am finding that it is still pretty easy to fill your life with distractions and time wasters. If anything I have become more addicted to my phone and computer than I once was. I find myself checking my phone way more frequently, which only leads to more distractions. I am learning that I make a lot of excuses for not having time for Jesus and only Him. Proving that I really don’t believe that He is enough for me. My thought process is skewed, what I really believe is that Jesus is enough for me as long as I still have control. There will always be distractions and stuff to fill our days. As many of us are learning, saying we don’t have time is simply an easy excuse. Because if we are being honest, most of us now have more time now than we want. And if you are like me, you are working hard to fill that time with more and different stuff. Not all of it bad, but is all of it necessary?

I find it ironic that we have been telling our kids and students for years to put their technology down and engage in an unconnected life. Now we are doing the exact opposite by providing even more content for them to intake. And I get it! We are desperately trying to stay connected and keep them engaged with school, friends, church and with Jesus. But what if we all just stopped and took a breath? Maybe just a day, to really and truly stop. Just be with Jesus, nothing and no one else, just Jesus. What would we hear? What would we see? What would we learn? What if we spent more time on our knees, submitting and humbling ourselves before our maker, seeking His direction? What if we found a place where Jesus really is enough? All the time and in every situation? I write this to myself as much as I do anyone else. Will you join me in trying to build in more time these next couple of weeks to truly just stop and be with Jesus? Will you allow Him to become enough? My hope and prayer is that we all will!